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An Apology to my Readers

Joshua 1:5 – No one will be able to stand against you as long as you live. For I will be with you as I was with Moses. I will not fail you or abandon you.

So last week I ranted about some of the issues I have been having with companies lately.  Between hearing from friends, readers, and my accountability partners, I realize that this is not a post that brings glory to God.  Therefore, I need to apologize to you, my readers.

There is no doubt that lately I have had a lot of stress in my life.  And everyone, whether Christian or heathen, come under times in life that we simply want to be heard, be selfish, and get revenge.

When I woke up the day after posting my blog last week, the above verse was my morning devotion.  To say that conviction hit me is an understatement.  I was floored.  I spent hours in prayer one late night and morning a few days ago because God just totally hit me like a ton of bricks with this realization.

Let’s look at Joshua for a moment.  This dude was put into Moses role in the blink of an eye.  He had always been the helper.  The assistant.  But now, he led the nation of Israel. 

During my time in devotion, I simply had to imagine how Joshua must have felt.  The Bible isn’t clear on this…at least not directly.  There are a lot of different occasions that God tells Joshua to be “strong and courageous.”  This tells me that God was with Joshua, even in his doubts or lack of confidence. 

I know over the past few weeks I have asked the questions that many people, perhaps even Joshua, asked over time.  “Why me, God?”  “What are you thinking, God?”  “Just give me a sign, God, that You are still here and I am in Your will.”

It wasn’t until I was still and heard God’s small voice telling me, “I am with you.  I am not going to leave you.”

Perhaps that is what God has been trying to teach me all along.  I need to trust God more and less the circumstances that I am given. 

So again I leave you with an apology.  And the promise that I have learned a lesson, that God is not going to leave me, even when I am walking through a desert and being attacked by the enemy from all sides.

Hebrews 13:5 – Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”